Breathing is My Friend…

Some of Evanescence’s songs are just so beautiful. Take this one on the radio as I am writing:

I wanted you to know
I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph;
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Because I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

You’ve gone away
You don’t feel me here, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn,
and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

You’ve gone away
You don’t feel me here, anymore

Sad, of course, but also beautiful. It also eerily coincides with how I felt on Saturday night as I was fighting to breathe, struggling not to give into the encroaching darkness. If not for my husband Shawn and my friend Julie, I would have given up the fight and just…faded to black. *shiver* Very eerie.

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At any rate, I finally got back to serious work on Vessel of Dreams last night. I yanked out the prologue at Catie’s suggestion and started going over the first three chapters with a fine-tooth comb. On this pass I am focusing on showing rather than telling–yes, that age-old writer’s mantra. Obviously, some telling is inevitable and at times necessary. But I have the bad habit of doing _too much_ telling rather than showing, especially in the beginning of the story until I find my rhythm. And since the beginning is the most vital part to _not_ do this since you are trying to entice an editor to read the entire story, obviously this is a necessary thing for me to overcome.

I must admit I got distracted by the tragedy that was game 4 of the World Series for awhile. I say tragedy because I live in St. Louis and am a Cardinals fan. And not one of those crappy Fair Weather Fans either. I stick with them through thick and thin. I’m actually happy for the Sox, but I am very disappointed that the Cardinals put forth such a sucky performance. I mean, come _on_. Only one or two of the guys was even getting good hits. It just figures that for the only decent game, game 1, I was too busy fighting to breathe due to being in the midst of anaphylaxis to actually pay attention to the game. All I remember is that during one of the brief moments of lucidity I looked at the tv and mumbled, “I never liked that Ben Affleck anyway” when he flashed across the screen. Of course, nobody else saw him so they all thought I was just hallucinating or something. *grin*

Er…where was I? Oh yes, writing. I worked through a few scenes and hope to get much farther tonight. I would love to finish up revising the first three chapters this weekend–barring any unforeseen disasters. Which may be easier said than done the way things are going lately!

Also, I have an appointment with the allergist tomorrow afternoon. Here’s hoping that we find out what I’m severely allergic to!!!

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ROFL…okay now this is ironic. As I finish this entry now Melissa Ethridge’s “It only hurts when I’m breathing” is on…LOL…the radio is mocking me I tell you!

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4 responses to “Breathing is My Friend…

  1. *peer* Is that off Fallen? I don’t recognize the lyrics. Not that I understand half of them anyway, but I don’t recognize them. Huh.

  2. That’s not really an Evanescence song. That’s a song by Seether and was released on their last album. But that version you’re listening to is from the Punisher soundtrack. They recorded a new version with Amy Lee, because she’s dating the lead singer.

    • Well, the version I heard was Evanescence, and that is the beautiful version I am referring to. *grin* I just love that girl’s voice. Hmm..don’t think I saw the Punisher. I remember seeing Daredevil and there was an Evanescence song on that. Sometimes I don’t pay enough attention to the music scene. *grin*

      • Um… You do know that Amy Lee IS the girl from Evanescence, right? Well, actually, she pretty much is Evanescence now since Ben Moody left because of “differences” or whatever his reasoning was. He kinda threw a hissy fit a few months back. I remember Amy talking about it on some music award show or another when she accepted an award. I don’t think that was the Grammy’s, so it was either American or Billboard.
        There were actually two Evanescence songs in Daredevil. (And yeah, I pay too much attention to the music scene. *wry grin*)